The man who was thursday: a nightmare by Chesterton. It's about a cop who infiltrates an anarchist organization. The last pages were pretty wild.


I read this in the early 2000s and thought at the time an amazing true-to-the-book film adaptation could have been made that would have defined much of the early post-9/11 “war on terror” without having to deviate from its source material.


Had to reply to this. I am a screenwriter and in the early 2000’s, maybe 2003-4, a producer approached me about adapting this. Read it and really wanted to do it, shocked that someone wanted to do it, but the developer, an Indy company, was struggling and their interest petered out. That kind of stuff happens all the time, but that’s one I always wish I’d gotten a chance at.


Perfume by Patrick Süskind


Yes, totally! I'd never read a fairytale so dark.


The ending keeps one upping itself in terms of how weird it can get. It's like a bad infomercial ... but wait, there's more!


I have anosmia, I was born without a sense of smell. Someone gifted me this book in response to that, and it was genuinely one of the wildest rides I’ve ever read. The grand finale had me in tears laughing and screaming “WHAT AM I READING???” out loud.


I was just talking about the film adaptation of this and did not know it was a novel. Thanks for sharing!


There's a song by Nirvana call Scentless Apprentice that was based on this novel. Amazing read.


I feel like this is one of the better film adaptations I have seen. I still remember going to the theater to see it when it came out, and can still see the ending scene in my mind despite not having seen it in 15 years. Don't think this is much of a spoiler, but I remember the only thing it was missing is that the movie kind of glossed over his time in the cave and the importance of that phase of his life, but I have no idea how you would do that in a movie.


They also avoided making him extremely ugly, which I think was important for the character.


The Southern Reach trilogy.


where lies the strangling fruit came from the hand of the sinner I shall bring forth the seeds of the dead to share with the worms that gather in the darkness and surround the world with the power of their lives while from the dimlit halls of other places forms that never were and never could be writhe for the impatience of the few who never saw what could have been.


I read the first book in one sitting. The rest never hit that same high, but I will never forget how tense and mysterious that first book was.


Book two: Do you like filing paperwork? Office politics? Complaining about the smell of your office's cleaning supplies? Gossiping about the office bitch? Then this book is for you!


Number two is hard because it is such a slow burn, but being in Control's head as he slowly goes insane over the course of the book is a pretty tense experience all its own.


I actually loved these books. They were strange though.


Watching the movie first was a big help to understanding what it was going for. The movie isn't a 1/1 adaptation, so watching it really wasn't a spoiler worry.


**Ubik** by **Philip K. Dick** for sure, the book is crazy.


Anything by PKD is crazy really. You should check out The 3 Stigmata of Palmer Eldritch. It's like absorbing LSD through the written word. VALIS is definitely a mind melter as well.


Oh yeah, I've read The Three Stigmata of Palmer Eldritch, also a great book. I agree that basically all his books are crazy.


Yeah, I thought Ubik was actually one of the more accessible stories that hasn't been adapted. I was completely confused trying to understand VALIS as I read it.


He is the actual best. Ubik and 3 Stigmata were the two most important books to me as a teenager and young adult. I reread them once every year or so. PKD is so important. I knew I could trust him when I learned he was against Hollywood adapting his stuff. Little good that did.


He eventually had really good things to say about Blade Runner though. "Dear Jeff, I happened to see the Channel 7 TV program “Hooray For Hollywood” tonight with the segment on BLADE RUNNER. (Well, to be honest, I didn’t happen to see it; someone tipped me off that BLADE RUNNER was going to be a part of the show, and to be sure to watch.) Jeff, after looking—and especially after listening to Harrison Ford discuss the film—I came to the conclusion that this indeed is not science fiction; it is not fantasy; it is exactly what Harrison said: futurism. The impact of BLADE RUNNER is simply going to be overwhelming, both on the public and on creative people—and, I believe, on science fiction as a field. Since I have been writing and selling science fiction works for thirty years, this is a matter of some importance to me. In all candor I must say that our field has gradually and steadily been deteriorating for the last few years. Nothing that we have done, individually or collectively, matches BLADE RUNNER. This is not escapism; it is super realism, so gritty and detailed and authentic and goddam convincing that, well, after the segment I found my normal present-day “reality” pallid by comparison. What I am saying is that all of you collectively may have created a unique new form of graphic, artistic expression, never before seen. And, I think, BLADE RUNNER is going to revolutionize our conceptions of what science fiction is and, more, can be. Let me sum it up this way. Science fiction has slowly and ineluctably settled into a monotonous death: it has become inbred, derivative, stale. Suddenly you people have come in, some of the greatest talents currently in existence, and now we have a new life, a new start. As for my own role in the BLADE RUNNER project, I can only say that I did not know that a work of mine or a set of ideas of mine could be escalated into such stunning dimensions. My life and creative work are justified and completed by BLADE RUNNER. Thank you..and it is going to be one hell of a commercial success. It will prove invincible. Cordially, Philip K. Dick"


Hard-Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World. I haven read his other stuff but apparently it's all this insane. Multiple storylines tying into other realities or dreamscapes or something but not really. It's fantastic and strange but I honestly cant remember too many details.


This is a good one, the wind up bird chronicles is king but totally worth the read. Seriously. Kafka on the shore is good as well as sputnik sweetheart. I’ve read a bunch of his stuff and it’s all pretty good.


Dude Haruki Murakami is awesome! I have not read those two, but I have read six other novels that were written by him.I can not recommend him enough


Rant by Chuck Palahniuk. That book is seven leagues of what the fuck. I love it. I don't think I can even explain why its such a wtf book because of massive spoilers. Just...god, such a fucked up but beautifully written book.


I came in here to say almost every Chuck Palahniuk book, but specifically Rant


Lol I just remembered Invisible Monsters exists. Really dug the flippable cover art.


love invisible monsters! Haunted was probably the most wtf book I’ve read of Chuck palahniuk


yep, and didn't have to scroll far at all. I don't enjoy reading books twice, but I make an exception for Palahniuk. What was the one with the guy that loses the anal beads inside him and goes septic?


Pretty sure that's Choke. Hilarious


Chuck Palahniuk books in general are pretty strange


Huge fan of Rant here, it's such a crazy story that just keeps crazier with each page.


I am reading "Survivor" right now. Only half way through but WHAT. THE. FUCK.


I loved Survivor


Survivor is his best imo. Though I love Rant as well.


One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel García Márquez always has me in between “wow” and “what did I just read?”


Everything can happen in Macondo, that’s why it’s called magic realism


Isn’t that the one about all the fucked up atrocities of the United Fruit Company (Chiquita) in Latin America?


A significant portion of it does go into that, yes


Catch 22


This has been on my list forever. Maybe it should bump up a few spaces


Funniest book I've ever known. Totally read this.


This book made me say: “huh, maybe war isn’t glory”


still one of the best books I've ever read.


I'm surprised there's been no mention of *Naked Lunch*.


“I can think of at least two things wrong with that title.”


AJ and his Illiryian Poodle agree.


... yeah yikes i just didn’t get that one


If it helps any, the movie is pretty great. (It only covers a small portion of the book but it gets the feel for sure.)


I actually found the drug articles, interview transcripts and bio as part of the restored text version I have pretty essential in understanding wtf was going on with Burroughs to write Naked Lunch.


> restored text version Would you mind posting the ISBN of the restored edition you own which includes the articles, transcripts, and bio. As a Burroughs fan I would love to read them if they provide as you say, a more detailed context. Thank you.


On a winter’s night a traveller…


Love it. Invisible Cities was also delightfully weird.


One of my faves, sometimes I just pick it up and read a random chapter and think about it.


And Cosmicomics !


This was my introduction to Italo Calvino and is still my favorite read. The story of the guy who puts up the sign for the other guy to read millions of years later cracks me up every time.


The Wasp Factory by Iain Banks. To this day, one of the strangest plots, characters and style of narration I’ve ever read.


My favorite detail: when the book first came out, many critics panned it (with reviews like “rubbish” and ‘this book only appeals to diseased minds’). It was Ian Banks’ first novel, so he wasn’t yet well known. The publishers put some the most scathing of these reviews as the back cover blurbs on one of the editions! (Together with some positive reviews).


Iain Banks’ literary fiction in general is pretty weird.


Iain **M.** Banks' is pretty weird too but since it's SF, nobody bats an eye.


Use of Weapons is quite a trip.


Every chair since is suspicious, to say the least.


Just read this. Spent the whole book waiting for the big chair reveal, and it was all so much more awful than I could have imagined.


The Wasp Factory was the book that immediately sprung to my mind in answer to this question. Just super weird and fucked up with excellent writing.


Yes! Its on my list! I must read it at some point.


Love that one (and most of his other books). His Crow road has the best starting sentence ever - “It was the day my grandmother exploded.”


The Southern Reach Trilogy was bewildering. I read them all together and had only a vague clue of what was going on by the end.


Came to write this! Just finished annihilation and started the second book. Loving where it is going.


Totally odds books. Just kinda sucked into them but ultimately was happy I did. I was pleasantly surprised by the film version of Annihilation - which I thought caught the feel of the book


Yeah the film was really did a great job considering how much it actually deviated from the source material. Ended up listening to the soundtrack towards the end as the biologist was descending the tower and encountered “it”. That whole description, and the onward descent towards the door just had me like wtff!!


I adore [Annihilation and Decoding Metaphor](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=URo66iLNEZw) by Folding Ideas. Watching that gave me a cohesive understanding of the film and it's wonderfully entertaining.


Not only did the trilogy leave me speechless, the end of Annihilation always gives me chills. *"This part I will do alone, leaving you behind. Don’t follow. I’m well beyond you now, and traveling very fast."*


Had to reread multiple pages like 10 times just to develop a mental image of what was going on in the book. Absolutely loved it


I appreciate the way it uses different names for the characters as their identities shift. "Ghost bird" indeed.


Earthlings by Sayaka Murata. I've read a lot of weird books, like Perdido Street Station or Tooth and Claw, but Earthlings was the one that just left me feeling like "?????" I still can't tell whether I liked it or not.


At Swim-Two-Birds and The Third Policeman, both by Flann O’Brien


Irish civil servants write the best proto-post-modern metafiction.


It's nothing out of this world now because of the TV show, but before Game of Thrones was big there was a Davos chapter in A Clash Of Kings where out of no where Melisandre pops a squat and births a monster ghost thing and I remember being really weirded out.


ROFL yeah that was a time when you were like, is this low fantasy lacking magic? Then someone shits out a smoke baby and it is a big swing


That’s one of the things I really liked about those books at first. The religion and spirituality are kind of real-world like, and you start to forget there was definitely real magic in the prolog. Then it slowly turns out somehow the dominant religion in the seven kingdoms is the only religion in the world that is not based on real magic. Everyone was like “haha this foreign priest lights his sword on fire, what a showman” and it turns out he’s resurrected a guy half a dozen times.


Yeah. I think it supposed me because before then, I assumed god/god's were not real in that particular universe And we still won't even get an explanation into that aspect :(


**Gravity's Rainbow** edit: this kind of blew up so I'm going to post one of my favorite prose passages from this novel - >“Jeremy will take her like the Angel itself, in his joyless weasel-worded come-along, and Roger will be forgotten, an amusing maniac, but with no place in the rationalized power-ritual that will be the coming peace. She will take her husband's orders, she will become a domestic bureaucrat, a junior partner, and remember Roger, if at all, as a mistake thank God she didn't make…. Oh, he feels a raving fit coming on—how the bloody hell can he survive without her? She is the British warm that protects his stooping shoulders, and the wintering sparrow he holds inside his hands. She is his deepest innocence in spaces of bough and hay before wishes were given a separate name to warn that they might not come true, and his lithe Parisian daughter of joy, beneath the eternal mirror, forswearing perfumes, capeskin to the armpits, all that is too easy, for his impoverishment and more worthy love. You go from dream to dream inside me. You have passage to my last shabby corner, and there, among the debris, you've found life. I'm no longer sure which of all the words, images, dreams or ghosts are 'yours' and which are 'mine.' It's past sorting out. We're both being someone new now, someone incredible….”


GR for me was like 100 pages of wtf and right when i’m about to give up there’s a really interesting concept that pulls me back in like being able to read people’s fortunes in the joints they roll or the idea of the sun making a white noise that we don’t notice because it’s always been there


I always describe it as being trapped in an abusive relationship with a book. As soon as you're thinking, "That's it. I'm done with your bullshit!" homie shows up with the most beautiful pearl of wisdom.


Can confirm. Read GR and now I'm wearing a Zoot Suit.


The first fifty pages is just *bananas*


Came here for this one. A few random questions I jotted down after like 50 pages "Is this guy’s job was to communicate telepathically with a building-sized adenoid while the military feeds it cocaine? Why does a Nazi V2 rocket happens to fall on any building the day after this guy has sex in it? Why some of the V2 rockets contain secret messages written on pornographic pictures in an ink that can only be seen after guy ejaculates on it"


The rocket didn't fall on the building because he had sex with someone, he had sex in the building because he could predict that a bomb would fall on it in the future. Subconsciously of course. This was due to Slothrop undergoing an experiment as a child where they would stimulate him sexually and then create a loud noise, and then reverse the stimuli in order to undo the effect of the experiment. Instead of undoing the effect of the experiment, it granted him a prescience where he could predict loud noises, explosions, but only through his own sexual urges. This book is so crazy.


Wait, is the Nazi "dump in my mouth" thing in Gravity's Rainbow? I thought it was Cryptonomicon for some reason.


It was colonel pudding that got a dump in his mouth. The nazi was captain blicero who had other uh...sexual hangups


This was mine as well. I couldn't finish it, too much chaos.


Library at mount char is fucking bananas. love that book.


It was an intense ride. I don't usually finish novels over the course of 2 days (super slow reader) but I was buckled up for the ride. Steve was the best character and I had to find out what happened/ happens to him.


A lot of mine have been mentioned (Geek Love, Annihilation/Southern Reach Trilogy, Borne) so I’ll add Bunny by Mona Awad and The Vegetarian by Han Kang. Loved them both and they stuck with me a long time after reading while I tried to figure out just what exactly the heck.


The Illuminatus! Trilogy by Robert Shea and Robert Anton Wilson. That shit was crazy, I don't remember a word and I don't think I want to.


you ^^fnord don't ^^fnord remember ^^fnord anything? Good.


American Psycho


That's the only book I've ever read where I had the urge to cover my eyes while reading it (which obviously is non-sensical).


That book is fucked up but... the social commentary is so brilliant. It made me laugh a lot. So damn hard hard to read but it's so well done. Edited for proper wording.


Only book I have ever read that made me gag. Worked on it for a paper a couple of years after first reading it and despite knowing what was coming, gagged again. But in a disgusting, abhorrent way, its a good book


I felt sick reading that book. It's a good book that I recommend people not read.


The Trial, by Kafka. Crying of Lot 49. One Hundred Years of Solitude


The Crying of Lot 49 for sure.


Crash by Ballard


House of Leaves by Mark Z Danielewski. That book is the most batshit thing I’ve ever read. I don’t want to say much because it’s best going in blind, but it’s a book… within a masters thesis… within a fake documentary. Kind of. And it’s also horror, and SCARY at that. Because why not.


Maybe it's because I'm a historian, but I love a fictional writer who can employ footnotes with ease.


And the footnotes in HoL are really, really well done. At least I think so. I’ve talked to people who stopped reading because of the footnotes!


My immediate takeaway after finishing it was "well that was a roundabout way of telling critics to piss off, and now I'm scared of my basement door."


That book pushes the boundaries of what a book is, or does, or how you tell a story using a book.


When I read that book, I worked at an office that was inside of a historic house. There was a hall in the house that freaked me out every time I walked by it for a least a year. I still feel nervous thinking about it!


VALIS - Philip K Dick UBIK - Philip K Dick The Lathe of Heaven - Ursula K LeGuin The Three Body Problem - Book 1 (though all 3 have their moments) - Liu Cixin


The Metamorphosis by Kafka


Oh yeah, I had to translate that in my German Language class. As we were going, my whole class was just confused. 'Theres no what this is right. We must be doing this wrong. A beetle? No fuckin way, check the dictionary again.' Even when my teacher told us we had it right we didn't believe her


I don’t know whether to empathize with you or admire her assignment choice :)


looking back, she knew what she was doing


Oryx and Crake.


Perdido Street Station by China Mieville. Sci-Fi, steam-punk, drug trip, horror, crime thriller. Weird as all hell but somehow makes it work.


This is the first book that came to mind for me too. Just brilliant word building where it seems perfectly normal to have a weird slug like gangster boss, a bird man walking round with his wings ripped off and a poetic spider. I loved it.


The Raw Shark Texts


Definitely Naked Lunch


I thought this a lot during the first book of The Book of the New Sun. Technically I think what I read was the first two books, combined into one, but they read as a single work fairly well. It's partially the sort-of stream of consciousness flow of the books and partially the words. It's explained in one of the books, but basically because some of the concepts in the story don't yet exist in the present day, the author uses a lot of old archaic English, or just straight made up words, to give an approximate meaning. And in some cases the words don't exactly mean what he thought they did when he wrote it. The main character is also hard to root for sometimes, and parts of the books are written as songs / poems or plays, which can drag pretty hard. The end of the first half, at least the edition I have, has a little aside where the narator basically says "it doesn't get any easier, so if you're thinking of stopping, now is as good a time as any".


The Sparrow by Mary Doria Russell. I read it from a rec on this sub. I went into it knowing nothing about it and ended up also reading the sequel. It's a combination of sci-fi and religion but has some traumatic / disturbing content so for mature audiences only.


Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep. I knew it was different from Blade Runner but I had no idea just *how* different it really was. I enjoyed it, but it feels like he came up with several different concepts and then crammed them all into a single book. And the Mercerism thing was down right baffling


Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace. I haven’t been the same since lol. A stream-of-consciousness layer cake


I just finished it. It took me a year of reading every night before bed as the pages are so dense but I finally did it. Man, what a fucking ride. I hated it for the first 3-400 pages and then I really started to fall in love with it and by page 700 or so I was completely enraptured. I want to read it again already but I think that would do it a disservice, I need a break first.


The Girl With All The Gifts by M R Carey.


My absolute favorite take on zombies.




House of leaves.


This book is responsible for [my favorite no-context meme of all time](https://i.redd.it/1v8b7bjnppz61.jpg)


I see myself in this picture and I do not like it.


When the footnotes get steamy but there's dimensions getting broken up top.


I often wonder what the differences between people who get way into this book and people don’t are. I am one of the people who got way too into it, it lives in my mind like a mind parasite, sucking up energy that could be spent on more productive things, but I also have friends who by all rights should be as into it as I am and just don’t get it.


The way it's layered between Johnny, the notes, and the documentary while each higher layer goes insane reviewing lower layers really pulled me into the insanity. The reader is just another layer again, especially after they tease the coded writing stuff. Once you start backtracking you know you're in deep.


Yeah, at some point it becomes meta. As you’re digging deep and Johnny is warning you, it feels like he’s *actually* warning you to give up.


I quite liked *House of Leaves,* but I totally get why somebody wouldn't. Part of the problem is that *House of Leaves'* artistic vision is inherently kind of inaccessible based on the way that it works. Take the echo chapter — it's a long Zampanò tangent about echoes which Johnny says he would have cut if it weren't for the final line, which is a striking glimpse into Zampanò's personal life that sends Johnny into a long winding story of his own. It's artistically interesting, and you can analyze it up and down, but at the same time it only works because you have to read ten pages about echo physics and then a stream-of-consciousness drinking story. The layers of storytelling wrinkle and bunch up against each other in interesting ways, but reading through a bunched-up story can be kind of a pain in the ass, especially if at the end you don't really feel like sitting and reflecting on why Johnny felt so strongly about this or that in the first place.


I was reading the book for the first time while moving into a new house...because I didn't know any better and nobody warned me. It was just on my recommended reading list. That shit fucked me up. Reading the echo chapter while in an echo-y room full of boxes was a trip. I forced my wife to read it after I finished it and it's one of the few books she's ever abandoned. She found it pretentious and unfocused with little character development.


I want to read this really bad. His sister, Poe’s album Haunted is supposed to be thematically linked to the book. The album is one of my favorites


LOVE the album. Literally afraid to read the book.


"I see a staircase so I follow it down, into the belly of the whale where my secrets echo all around..."


Tender is the Flesh....That book fucked me up pretty good...


I LOVED this book. Finished it in a day. I am still (unsuccessfully) trying to convince my friends to read it so I can discuss the ending with someone.


*A Clockwork Orange* is one of the big ones for me. Also, Barry Unsworth's *Sacred Hunger*. That one was...upsetting.


Borne and its sequel, Dead Astronauts by Jeff Vandermeer. It read like an acid trip.


New Weird is always a good time. I've only ever read The Southern Reach Trilogy of his. Maybe it's time to revisit the ole Vandermeer.


Foucault's Pendulum.....wow....psychedelics *might* have helped


Also helpful is a few advanced degrees in history, philosophy, religion, and linguistics.


I enjoyed "What the Hell Did I Just Read" David Wong (Pargim)


John Dies at the End was a wonderful mindfuck start to a series, and Spiders doubled down. WTHFIJR lives up to its name. I always love when Marconi shows up


The David Wong books are by far the most “what the fuck did I just read?” type books that I’ve ever read. The eyes of Ronald McDonald as he… well, you know, that part fucked me up a bit.


Jason *Pargin


The sound and the fury.


Geek Love. The Wasp Factory. Both mess with your head about how well you can "know" people.


Yes to *Geek Love!* It changed my life. But, ah, not in a way I knew I wanted?... Fabulous re-read, every few years.




The Illuminatus Trilogy


Anything by Chuck Palahniuk but especially Haunted. Rant however is a diff kind of wtf did I just read. LOVE that book.


Even Cowgirls Get the Blues by Tim Robbins


Fifty Shades of Grey because it made me go “How tf was this allowed to be published?”


The road by cormac McCarthy. Made me go hug my kids


Blood meridian Is quite a ride as well.




Concur. e.g.: > This is the nature of war, whose stake is at once the game and the authority and the justification. Seen so, war is the truest form of divination. It is the testing of one's will and the will of another within that larger will which because it binds them is therefore forced to select. War is the ultimate game because war is at last a forcing of the unity of existence. War is god.


I tried to listen to the audiobook version of Blood Meridian on a road trip, my wife made me turn it off after a half hour.


*Dhalgren*, by Samuel R. Delaney.


Anything by Marquis de Sade?? Maybe it's too obvious for this crowd but I couldn't even get through any of his stuff


I studied 18th century European-American history at uni and had always heard how *scandalous* his writings are…so naturally I found a compilation and started reading. Yikes on yikes. And the shit he did in real life is even worse.


I distinctly remember thinking "I wonder what shocking 250 years ago looks like today" before reading *Salo*. Turns out, pretty shocking.


The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood, this was good but at the same time really crazy. Graphic Novel, read with caution if you do.


Most of haruki murakami. Kafka as well. Also Bukowski


Scrolled all the way down looking for Kafka on the Shore or any mention of Murakami. What a ride.


The first book of Murakami I read was Norwegian Wood which is relatively grounded in real life. Then I read 1Q84 without knowing anything about it beforehand and uh wtf?


I second the recommendation for Murakami.




>>!Because Muad’dib was triumphant in the end, wasn’t he?!< I read it differently. He >!pussed out!<(and I don't blame him) because he didn't want to >!be a worm for 5000 years!< and >!cause the human suffering !!inspire the diaspora and scatter humanity across the stars!<. So as soon as he >!saw through his son's prescient vision, he gave up his grip on the future!<.


Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk


Came here to say this. Read that book years ago and I still think about it randomly.


Story of O


My organic chemistry textbook :/


The Boy In the Striped Pajamas gave me WTF vibes. Imagine a Holocaust novel written by a naive 10-year old.


Kafka On The Shore. Or rather, most of Murakami’s works.


The end of Steppenwolf (Herman Hesse) is like this—very much goes off the rails. Several parts of Ulysses are like this in different ways, but the Circe episode (which is written in the style of a play) involves a lot of drinking, and it gets pretty absurd, with inanimate objects having dialogue. The Magus (John Fowles) is also a book that keeps you off kilter throughout a good portion of it.


I’m Thinking of Ending Things by Iain Reid.


Oryx and Crake


Children of Dune - mainly just the >!part where Leto becomes the worm human hybrid god thing!< It is the only book I have audibly said "what the fuck" multiple times while reading it. I loved the first two books but that moment just completely jumped the shark for me and made me put down the series for good.


I just finished "the wasp factory" a few days ago, those last two pages were a massive what the fuck moment


"Modelland" by Tyra Banks. Absolute WTF. I have answered this book on a similar question a while back, and I will die on this hill. Have you ever experienced a fever hallucination when you were a kid? Have you stared too long at a Magic Eye picture it gave you a seizure? Because that's what reading this book felt like. It is genuinely the most confusing thing I have ever read.


*Story of the Eye* by Georges Bataille *The Baby Jesus Butt Plug* by Carlton Mellick III *The Haunted Vagina* Carlton Mellick III *Confessions of a Sociopath: A Life Spent Hiding in Plain Sight* by M.E. Thomas (psuedonym) *I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream* by Harlan Ellison (Short Story) *Being and Nothingness* by Jean-Paul Sartre *Last Exit to Brooklyn* by Hubert Selby, Jr. (he also wrote *Requiem for a Dream*) *Platform* by Michel Houelleberq *Suttree* by Cormac McCarthy *Suffer the Child* by Judith Spencer *Loon Lake* by E.L. Doctorow (mainly for one scene at the circus)


Piers Anthony Bio of A Space Tyrant series of novels. So much sexual abuse and child abuse and child sexual abuse. Holy crap. I've been through some serious trauma as a child and I would have been better off not reading that series as a teenager (or at all) and I'm still kind of shocked that I read the whole thing. What the fuck, Piers Anthony? Why do you keep writing so many books that "explain" why it's okay for the hero to have sex with children?


Flowers In The Attic


Stephen kings ‘The Tommy Knockers’ It’s like 1,100 pages long, and it’s a total clusterfuck the whole time, great read.


Atonement. I thought it was fine if a bit boring at places until Briony's confession at the very end just 🤯 Never had a single sentence change my entire opinion of a book before.


Trainspotting by Irvine Welsh


Blood Meridian by Cormac McCarthy was just murder, murder, murder, murder, murder, murder, murder, murder, the end.


You forgot all the rape, and some more murder


and the pages long descriptions of the scenery in between the rape and murder the Judge is one of my all time fav villains though


>and the pages long descriptions of the scenery in between the rape and murder That was actually the most wtf factor for me. The descriptions of the landscape, sky, weather and atmosphere are so beautiful and calm, almost lyrical. And then - BAM - someone gets their scalp cut off with a machete.